1. If you won the lottery, what would you do?

Winning the lottery is a huge load of someone shoulders. At least someone with a lot of baggage up there. Being a person who was in a war or a single mother trying to raise 2-5 children on her own with no father in plain sight. One day waking up doing the same thing everyday, to waking up saying "oh what fun activities would you like to do today?". I'd have so much to do, buy, save, and think about. The endless amount of possibilities to make someones life happier, more fulfilled, or even the for the worse, you never know.

My parents split when I was about 8 years old. By my 9th birthday I remember seeing my dad stop by with a Dixie Chicks cd. I remember my dad's first girlfriend after my mother, and same with my mother's first boyfriend. I had a great life up to that point. My mom raised my sister and I until I was about 13, then our brother came down to live with us. A single mom of 3 kids is a hard thing to do. Only one of the two father's pay child support. Just a hard life of a single mom. If we did win the lottery at that moment in time I'm sure it would have been a help, a huge help. I was always sick so our medical bills would have been deleted from our lives. Our house big enough for my sister and I to be in seperate rooms. Never worry about food money, bill money, or even rent. So the nessicities would be paid for. My brother and sister could go to college easy then. No worries in the feild of money.

Around 15 years old I started dating my current boyfriend, Craig. He is the love of my life and I knew it from the start [well I started dating him because he was popular ended up falling for the kid]. If I won the lottery at this age, who knows what I would have spent my cash on. Probably our families and each other. Making sure we had a good life and things we wanted. Spoiling our frinds and the dreams of any 15/18 year old does have. A lot of the time you think about money being the best thing, sometimes money doesn't help you out that way. If you ever seen the episode of Roseanne when they win the lottery, you'd see that the ending of the season didn't end up so "happy". Her husband had an affair, Roseanne was always depressed, and things wern't as close or happy as they once were. That's the fault of money for ya.

As for now if I won the lottery, my head sits on good shoulders. I would have enough money to go to a school of my choice [not the one my dad works for]. I'd pay for Criag's College and my own. My mom and siblings would be thought highly of. I'd plan on my mom not having to rely on her husband and be happy with life agian. I would buy a piece of land close to home, and build several houses so everyone was satisfied. The clothes I would have would be endless, OH! the closet I would have. I would have the red beetle I want and it would be BRAND NEW! I'd put a lot of that money into savings for me and my family when I am older. But most importantly I'd donate to St. Judes Childrens Hospital and Research Center. The money I have won would be put to good use. For myself and for others. I'd help out more with the community with the free time of not having to work. But, in all seriousness I'd still work. I'd work as a teacher and get to fulfill my life as becoming of what I want.

As an elder and winning the lottery I'd be more than satisfied. I'd have enough money to not worry about co-pays for the doctors, medical bills, and even my retirement fund to live off of. I could do what I wanted to do day in and day out. My grandchildren and children could live good lives. I could be more focused on living life and not "getting by". I'd have money to travel (by car or RV) so I could see the world before I passed. I'd write a book and give that book to the ones I loved. The ONLY thing about the lottery and winning is... YOU have to play to win and if you don't play, you can't win.

Set Aside for English...

In school my favorite thing to do was to write. Rather it be journals, essays, prompts, even homework writing assignments that took up a majority of my free time at home. I loved every moment of it. In all seriousness I miss it, and plan on doing a lot of writing on this blog. It's an easy way for me to have an idea or concept to write things. Telling random people my life story if fine, it's an interesting thing. A majority of people are "nosey" anyway.

I've always seemed to have the best grades in my literature. I'm not sure if it was because it was the only thing I felt that I was good at. Or even if I was good at it but all my English Teacher's rocked [for the most part - Dr. Bher, not so "smashing"]. It made me feel in a comfort zone or something! All I know is that my writing fondness will be seen on my Blog site for the time being. I'll still vent and such if I have something to say...

I have a list of topics I'm going to use in order. I'll title my Blog after the topic, and write my "essay"! How fun can one girl have. I hope you can at least tell that I'm in bed at home on a Friday night. Being sick for the past 5 days does that to a girl. I'm starting one as soon as I'm done with this entry.

Ta Ta For Now ; )

My future come to what?

This past week has been pretty, oh whats the word I'm looking for? Goal oriented! Not only have I been thinking of my career path, my boyfriend and my future together, and of course MONEY MONEY MONEY! My boyfriend and I share everything, including our life goals and ambitions. We both share same interests in very different ways. He loves his "guy stuff". I, of course love my "girly things". So coming up with a way to have our life as we want it can be challenging, but what relationship wouldn't be?

As for myself, I want to become a teacher. Elementary School, grade yet to be decided. That's why I am thinking about substituting first, while I'm in school for it. Learn about the students development stages, Social Skills, and of course RESPECT! But I at least have my goal figured out... become a teacher, teach little children, and possibly moving up to teaching Elementary Deaf Students. [sign language is a HUGE part of my life as for my boyfriends parents are both deaf!] I want children of course, I want a house I can be sure is my own [with him of course!] I want, I want, I want... That's the easy part, you know laying it out there. The hard part is completing it and showing everyone you can do it.

His goals are pretty much the same, doing well in the career path he chooses. Think about life long employment and knowing the knowledge of that career. That means, not switching jobs, having that job security that we both want him to have. But also, loving his job, knowing he is the best he can be, ect. He wants children, more than I want too. He wants a house, he was a family, a life long career of this life. I hope everything plans out right and we get what we are going after. He mentioned something to me last night. Stating he was thinking about the military because at least he would know our lives are in a secure place. [which i want that, but military? I'm not ready for that!] We'll see, I want him to look at everything, study it all, and make up his mind on what he wants in life [career wise]!

As for all of that no matter what I want to marry this man. I will marry this man! I can't wait for that day either. Hopefully soon and hopefully it's when we're both ready for it to happen.

This, That, and The Other...

Welcome, or shall you welcome me? I'm 100% new to this "blogging" thing. I might add that i'm pretty excited about it though. Let's start off explaining who I am and what I'm about! I'm Mberry90, a woman who lives in Florida and basically has her entire life. I'm not yet a mother, a wife, or a occupational careerist! Shameful for me to say, on my behalf of course. But I want to be, I want to be ALL of that. I will... eventually! I do have a good, strong, secure relationship. I love this man more than anyone. Love is a strong thing, and I can't wait for the next step in our relationship! My mother is basically my family. I have a close connection with her and my one sister and basically one of my brothers. My mother is basically my everything, and then some.
As for my father, we don't talk... well we used to until 3 years ago he decided when I moved out of his house to live with my mother he wouldn't talk to me anymore! CRAZY, but that is his deal.
I have high expectations and I really want to shine and prove myself to the world. I want to become a teacher, im sure I'll be discussing later. I pretty set on having ONE child... but looks of that is TWO! We'll see, it's still early! I have high anxiety problems, I'm pretty sure its the way I was raised, but there is not telling for sure! Basically that's about it. That was my "Intro" for you to understand a little about me before I start my venting on all of you :)

- oh the joy of the internet!!! :)